High Stakes for Problem Gamblers
Source: ABC Queensland, "Mick, Sarah, and Ian -
The Stakes are High for Problem Gamblers." Feb. 21,2008
It can
start so innocently. So you had a little bet on the
Melbourne Cup and lost, or you overspent a little on
the pokies. You tell yourself, "So what, I won't do
it next time". But the fact is that for some people
what starts out as a harmless dabble in gambling can
grow into an obsession.
Mick, Sarah and Ian know what it's like to lose
control. They're all reached the point when gambling
began to ruin their lives. They know what it's like
to lose everything, their family and friends, money
and possessions, dignity and self-esteem.
But
in the hope they may be able to help others, they
want to encourage others to take the road to
recovery.
Ian
says an addiction to gambling is like an allergy.
"For people who may be allergic to bees, they won't
go sitting near a bee hive but for me, I'm allergic
to gambling but that's the thing I want to get to,
as often as I can".
Sarah agrees, "It's very much like an allergy that
you can't get away from. It's caught you".
Like other addictions, problem gambling has at its
initial high, in this case, the thrill of winning.
When it's working, it feels good; you're making
money, living in the moment and everything in the
universe is working with you, picking you up and
carrying you along.
Mick describes those moments as the biggest thrill
he's had in his life. "I used to say the more money
I had in my pocket, the bigger the superman symbol
on my chest... the greater I'd feel. It was an
incredible high".
"It's like you're in love", Sarah laments, "and
you're sedated with this enormous feeling.
Everything is possible".
But
most gamblers will tell you at some point it all
comes crashing down. These stories are no exception.
During their recovery, all three have had time to
reflect on their addictions with gambling.
"It's a false hope that it's going to turn the
corner very shortly. With me it was poker machines.
I live in a hope that it's going to turn soon and
then I'll leave. But I never leave because I am a
compulsive gambler," says Sarah.
"I've come to believe that gambling isn't the
problem, I'm the problem," adds Mick.
Ian
says he was born a compulsive gambler. "I was just
waiting to have that betting experience and once I
had that experience there was a sensation inside me
that I wanted to keep finding in my life. At one
stage I had my own small business and I was working
two other jobs on the side. The problem was, the
more I earned the more I spent".
He
reached a personal low when he managed to gamble the
cost of a car in a single weekend. "I convinced the
bank that I was going to come to Brisbane over the
weekend and purchase a second hand car - that was
the reason for the loan. And I got that cash, and I
proceeded to lose that in the next 36 hours through
the poker machines. It was over ten thousand
dollars".
In
comparison, Sarah feels her early life, in a big
family in the Solomon Islands, pre-disposed her to
become a gambler. "Gambling and drinking is a normal
thing in our family. When I grew up I didn't really
want to be a gambler because I saw what it causes. I
got a scholarship to Australia when I was fifteen
and I stayed on and I thought 'Thank God I got away
from that'. But deep within me I had already
engraved those belief systems with me".
Her
life reached a low point when her husband left her
with a large debt and a young daughter. Seriously
depressed and unable to reach out for help, she was
considering suicide the day a girlfriend first
introduced her to the pokies at an RSL club.
"My
friend gave me five dollars and said 'Try this'. So
when I tried it, I won the mini-jackpot. All that
feeling of depression just lifted. Wow, what a
feeling. My heart came alive. And so from there, I
went on... gambling with the friends once a week. I
started going by myself, I started going every
night, after work... for six and a half years. I
hocked all my things. Then at the end I was living
in a garage, with my child. I looked forward to
seeing the poker machine and I'd treat it like a
lover".
In
the end, it was something Sarah's daughter said to
her that made her act. Sarah says she could see her
daughter's pain and fear mirroring her own childhood
and she called the Gamblers Anonymous helpline.
On
the other hand, Mick's gambling story began when he
was an immigrant schoolboy, unable to speak English,
who found success in the playground through his
marble-playing prowess. "As I progressed in life I
learnt how to gamble on all sorts of things: pinball
machines; playing darts; pool tables; scratchies;
lottos; casino games; the whole lot... I just loved
gambling - full stop".
Before he was even 21, Mick knew he was in deep
trouble with gambling. It wasn't long after, when he
gambled the savings he and his fiancée had accrued
for their engagement party, that his mother and
fiancée gave him an ultimatum.
His
first attempt at quitting was unsuccessful and he
went on to plummet to lower depths, including
serving three jail terms for gambling-associated
crime. "I've slept in the park across from the
casino. I stole from friends, family and neighbors.
I broke into people's homes. I broke into
businesses. I ended up in hospital for with severe
stomach pains through absolute fear because I owed
money to people on the wrong side of the law".
Mick ended up at the Salvation Army Rehabilitation
Centre at Red Hill. "What I had was time out. I had
time to work out who I am, what I am and what I need
to do to recover from this problem. And so for
thirteen months I had this wonderful time out.
"Some of the keys for us to recover are first of all
we've got to become honest - to ourselves and to
other people. For me personally, it's a relief. It's
a lot easier to be honest than to be dishonest".
Sarah finishes his sentence and reflects on the
similar place the three have been and where they all
don't want to return. "It's a sentence with a full
stop and that's it, it's completed".
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