A Family
Pastime Turns Addictive Online
Source: The New York Times, Feb. 22, 2008
Celebrity journalist Martha Frankel has interviewed
Johnny Depp, Elizabeth Taylor and Robert DeNiro. But
perhaps the most interesting story of her
journalistic career is the one she has written about
herself.
Ms.
Frankel grew up in a loving, lively household of
gamblers, a childhood she describes in her new
memoir “Hats & Eyeglasses: A Family Love Affair with
Gambling.” Her memories consist of her father’s
poker games and mahjong with her mother’s friends,
all while food simmered on the stove and laughter
filtered through the home. She had her first kiss at
the racetrack. The title comes from lessons she
learned at her father’s regular card games and
refers to those times when you’re “losing so bad
your ship is sinking. All that’s left on the water’s
surface are your hat and eyeglasses,” Ms. Frankel
explains.
But
it wasn’t until the age of 45 that Ms. Frankel
rediscovered poker, becoming a skilled player in
regular games with friends or at casinos. She won
more than she lost, but the stakes were relatively
low and poker remained mostly a social pursuit.
After a dealer told her about Internet gambling, she
logged on to a site called Paradise Poker and she
was hooked. For more than a year she struggled with
her compulsion, hiding it from her family and
friends and losing tens of thousands of dollars
before breaking free from the intoxicating allure of
Internet gambling.
I
spoke with Ms. Frankel recently and asked her to
share her thoughts about the power of online
gambling and the Internet.
Question: You tell the story of your childhood with
such nostalgia, are you ever worried that you are
making gambling a bit too appealing for your
readers?
Answer: I see now what it was. It was this potent
mix of love and food and gambling. I realize that I
have recreated the same thing in my house as this
place where food and love and talking were all part
of this big stew that you wanted a piece of. I worry
I make it sound really enticing, but here’s the
truth. It is really enticing. There is something
about playing cards. It’s so congenial, and yet
there is something so stinging to it, you’re trying
to beat your opponent who is normally your best
friend. There is something about that that really
teaches you a lot of lessons.
Question: How did you cross over from social
gambling to getting hooked on Internet gambling?
Answer: I was in Atlantic City one night at the Taj
Mahal. I love the Taj Mahal because you can still
smell the cigars in there even though it’s a
smoke-free environment. I asked a dealer, “How come
nobody’s here?'’ And he said, “Why play here if you
can stay home and play in your pajamas.”
My
breath got caught. Back then it was not an easy
thing to do. It took me four or five hours to
download the site. I logged on and they give you
play money at first. Every time the phone rang I got
bounced offline because I only had dial-up. I did
good with the play money and I immediately thought,
“If I could do this for five hours a day, and make
$100 an hour, why would I ever work?” I thought that
immediately. The minute I started I was completely
hooked on it.
Question: But you had played for years, why was the
Internet your downfall?
Answer: The computer is addictive. There is
something in its nature. From the minute I lost
online I had this attitude of “they owe me 300
bucks.” Then the next day they owed me $600. I could
never get past that. I was forever trying to make up
what they owed me. At a casino I didn’t think like
that. I’m not a chaser. If it’s not my day I’m happy
to do something else. Online I couldn’t stop that
thing of wanting to beat them. At a casino there is
a very human element — someone is slow, someone says
something funny, the dealer is a jerk. Online there
is none of that. It’s a computer generating hand
after hand after hand very quickly.
Question: What kind of stakes are we talking about?
Answer: At home I play for a quarter, half dollar.
If you play like an idiot all night you might lose
$100. In the casino, it might be pots of $400 to
$1,200. Online, I lost between $50,000 and $70,000.
Question: At what point did you realize that you
only had “hats and eyeglasses.'’
Answer: I realized probably two months into it, but
I did it for another year and three months. Instead
of stopping, I just kept believing that I could
figure it out. It became so compulsive and
obsessive. I dreamt about it and I thought about it.
I realized I was getting up every single morning and
thinking two things: please let me stop, or let me
be brave enough to kill myself to stop this. Now I’m
hearing from an unbelievable amount of people who
are in the same boat I was.
Question: How did you get out of the boat?
Answer: My mother, who was getting very old and who
I adored, called me hysterical and said, “What have
I done? Why aren’t you talking to me?” The shame I
felt that I had turned my back on the one person who
believed in me more than anyone. It didn’t make me
stop, but it made me stay away from my computer one
second at a time. It took months. Finally, when I
turned my computer on and deleted the site from my
computer, it took me months to stop yearning for it.
Question: I’ve heard you predict that we are about
to be hit with a “tsunami of online gamblers washing
up on the beach.'’ Why do you say that?
Answer: I recently got a letter from a man, both he
and his wife were addicted. He woke up, and she was
playing even though they promised to stop. I felt so
bad for him. Parents call me about their kids, and I
say it sounds like they’re gambling online. I tell
them to go on the computer and press “all programs”
and read them, and they find Full Tilt Poker and
Absolute Poker. I think we have no idea what is
going to happen. I think women are more prone to
this. At casinos, women play the slots where they
don’t have to make eye contact with anybody else.
But if you never had to leave your house, if you
could just stay home in your pajamas and nobody ever
had to know….
To
learn more about Ms. Frankel and her work, visit her
Web site
here.
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